Pima's Testimony

I think God has the best timing.  My son D met his biological dad for the first time this past Friday, which put quite the damper on the kickoff of our weekend.  But yesterday ended the weekend with one of the sweetest days that my family has experienced in a while.  Our 16 year-old daughter Pima shared her testimony and was baptized at our church pool party.

I asked Pima if I had permission to share her testimony online.  It just touches the surface of her life, showing a glimpse of her world in the foster system for the past five years, and its remarkable.  I am so proud of her and am so thankful that God allowed Ryan and I to become a part of her story.  So without further ado, and in her exact words- here is Pima's testimony:

I didn’t really know Jesus at first.  My mom didn’t really talk about him so I didn’t know him.  But when I did, I thought it was too late.  My parents divorced, family members are splitting apart, my step brother died, and I end up in CPS.  I will keep telling myself, if there is a God, why is this all happening?  Why didn’t Jesus stop it?  He helped the blind and the starved people.  Why am I different?  I really don’t trust this mysterious God everyone was praising, but I told people I did and that my life was going great. . . but really it wasn’t.  It was a scam.
            I moved a lot to different homes saying “Yeah I got a church home” and “Yeah I know him” but I really didn’t know him.  So my trust wasn’t really in his hands.  Then one of my foster mom would baptize me, I didn’t know what it was, I didn’t have a choice.  My life was a defenseless marionette puppet being controlled by everyone.  But I went to church more and learned more scripts (scriptures).  My favorite is John 3:16.  It grabs my attention, “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”  As I read these scripts I would feel stronger and braver. 
I would talk to Jesus through writing and ask him to make my life be amazed.  And I guess he said “okay here’s Ryan the most crazy family that would make an internal person be external.”  Ryan started off as my caseworker at first and he would talk to me and for the first time I opened up to him and his wife about my story and it felt like 40lbs had dropped off my back.  It felt great, to talk to Ryan and his wife Sara.  Then Jesus totally shocked me when he wanted Ryan my case worker to take me in as his own.  Why is this Jesus’ plan?  I really don’t know.  But I been running from God’s plan for so long so I gave and started to follow God’s plan.
So as I was new living in his home, I learned to trust in the Lord.  But I didn’t trust him or believe that he can take care of all my problems.  Like how can a ghost that died thousands of years ago save you.  But that all changed when the Senters took me to my first Christian camp.  It changed my whole view of the world.  It broked down my gold walks and I opened my door for Jesus to come in and I trusted him.  It didn’t come easy people cause I cried and I was really scared and trapped.  And when I did accept in Jesus, my world got brighter.  Its hard to explain but I saw so much more smiles and it made me more happy.  But its scary too not knowing what he gonna do with your life, and I’m gonna find out by following him only. 
So accepting Jesus was a big deal to me.  Its kind of hard to let go of all the problems you started or you have but I did it, I gave it to him.  No people it’s not an actual thing you have to give to him like the Samaritan giving her jug.  Its your problem that’s blocking the road.  Just let it go, don’t worry about it anymore.  I stopped worrying, now my sister is out of my hands but I know Jesus is taking care of her.  I am more patient and honest, I want people to know that it ain’t that bad to trust him.  That’s where Ryan taught me about baptism.  He told me baptism is a way of showing people that you accepted Christ in your life, like a wedding ring showing people you’re married.  So of course I wanted to do it and it became my top list.  Accepting Jesus in your life need to be knowed because it’s a wonderful thing.

We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life. Romans 6:4

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